Oww.my stomach hurts again. why? i had one mooncake too many. my mum bought mooncakes yesterday. MY FAVOURITE! durian and gren tea. my sis cut the lovely DURIAN mooncake and started eating. i only had 2 pathetic peices and after that, because i was thirsty, drank a glass of water after that. then my stomach is hurting uptil now. and i feel like i'm having diarrhoea. yipes.):

let me show you the oh-so-yummy mooncake:





as we all already know,
yellow= durian
orange=orange
greem=green tea.


one empty space as the other durian is already gone.. in my stomach.(:





blah. it's raining now. that's not good. it's cool and everything but yah. there'll be a mini outdoor pool in no time. click here to find out. read it and you'll know what i'm talking about.

so you see, the bloody rain is like NOT amusing at all. it's so... disturbing.


urgh! it's so annoying! my stomach! it feels like there are 20 iron bars spining in them and with each spin, it cuts the walls of your stomach. WTF. it huts like crap:(


i really should find a new blogskin. i know. but i'm lazy. as usual. nothing surprising.

oh @#%&. my stomach as made me forget what i wanted to blog about. forget it. maybe next time. till then ,BAH.

blah. went studying today again with elsie. at delifrance. my goodness! we reached there at aorund 11.25 today. just in case people think we 'pontanf' school... NO, WE DIDN'T. school finished at 10.15 today. because of some sustained achievement thingy.. then upon leaving delifrance, we met nat NG. long time no see darling!(:


elsie lim just had to us emy phone and take un-glamorous pictures. but i'm only uploading ONE.







as i think you all can see, the background is delifrance and my hair is in a giant mess. my hand is in an awkward position and my eyes can hardly be seen. my smile was a half way talking to elsie, nodding my head in a matter-of-factly way. then elsie decided to 'ka-cha' ad take my picture. well done. SMILE! your on candid camera. this jeanette, is a good reminder to STOP doin un-glamorous things on public. i SHOULD be more self-conscious...



yes, after studying for 2.5 hours, our brains we're going to explode/burst. the cold started to get our heads(delifrance is @#%&-ing cold lah!) so we decided to leave instead. walked around.. saw a pair of VERY pretty topshop SILVER coloured shoes i WANTED!!! but thet're bloody hell 49 DOLLARS! money.. money..money. bah.


anyways, my sister won a prixe/trophy today. she's got 2nd place in the "lower primary sports day". how did i know? well, she's been going on and on about it since the begining of the year. haha. here's the trophy.




the star bears the school name, to those who can see. clearly NOT from the same school as me. thank god. at the botttom, the goldish thing, rather, the gold plate, that's the part that says:

LOWER PRIMARY SPORTS
2006
P2 RACE 3
2ND







i think that's super cool. never won any trophys/medals before.): i'm not a sports person. i win like certificates. but that's not cool. i think trophys/medals are cooler.(:


ah wells. see you around. till then, BAH.

i am feeling really nervy today. not nervous my dears, it means like after eating a long string of medication or anti-biotic, that kind of trembling, fainting feeling yah? i myself have NO idea why. can't be the pain killers. i only had 2 since yesterday...


my gosh. my headache is getting from bad to worst! the 2 painkillers didn't seem to work. i thought it was the double dosage i had(each at least 8 hours apart) that made me feel nervy. but no. i completely don't recall anything i ate that made me feel so weird. goodness gracious me. i have so got to find out before i faint. which is like soon:(


i think i am going to have migraine.that's what the exams have done to me. thank you so much school. for stressing the butt off me. and for re-iterating the fact that we have to study hard because this year is the deciding year. we either make it or break it. how encouraging. i feel a sudden outburst of energy... when i wake up at 5am every morning. whoa. i am so going to be awake during lessons. wow. -_-'''


haha. i re-updated my friendster pictures. this is so fun. i enjoy updating it a lot. (:


oh. i was at RTC/RTP yesterday. for JAY walking. that is like totally retarded. really. i mean, if i didn't jay walk, we'll be bloody hell late and i would get sent to RTC/RTP. so what's the point? so yeah. i don't really care. my mum signed the form and she laughed. mind you, she LAUGHED. out loud. my parents are a funny bunch.

WARNING! TEACHERS! IF YOU'RE READING THIS, PLEASE STOP!

i seriously think my parents are the parents from HELL. nono, they don't give ME or my siblings hell. they give the TEACHERS hell. unless we're in the wrong. i remember when i was in primary 3 or4.. my chinese teacher called up my dad saying that my chinese result were crappy shit. i got 70-80 plus ONLY. saying that i needed tuition. my dad YELLED at her. saying that she didn't do her duty as a teacher. "i send my daughter to school to learn, not for her to come back and you tell me she needs tuition. if that's the case, what does she need to go to school for?" HAHA! IN YOUR FACE! i thought back, is 70-80 marks for chinese LOUSY? i thought it was quite okay... mind you, i'm still maintaining that standard until now. i still get 70-80 plus you know. and i NEVER had tuition. for ANYTHING. say i'm boasting, whatever. but you see, i think there is no need for tuition if you still can cope with it. i know my math sucks to the core(i can count up to 20) but yah. it takes time. send me for tuition and i'll bloody hell loose interest in the subject. yes, i admit. my primary3-4 chinese results were the worst ever. my primary 5-6 until now, it has maintained at 75-85 marks. highest between these years? 26/30 for a test. surprising right? yes. i am NOT mediocre.

nothing about me is mediocre. thank you. i am special. (:

haha. till then.

pain pain pain!!! my head hurts like some @%&#-ing shit. so pain! must be the bloody algebra that i did today. stupid factorisation. and fractions. SEE! all the bloody 'F's i can never understand. bloody hell. URGH! so bloody pain lah! how am i supposed to study history(the dry-est subject ever) tonight?! my head will explode!!! i need one thing. root beer.


shit shit shit! i haven't passed up my hawaii form. must sign by tonight.
shit shit shit! i haven't passed up my dance-a-thon thingy.
triple shit! i haven't started on science yet! exams are NEXT WEEK! @#%&!


i seriously need to take a glamorous photo. because if i don't even have one, how am i supposed to take the bloody photo down? so help me! and you people KEEP insisting that i look retarede. with particular reference to cindy, audrey and eunice. great. i ALREADY know i look retarded. so just quit it lah. i feel very stressed already. telling me i look stupid/retarede/ugly is not going to work. blah. but i have to admit. that IS a very unglam photo.


cindy keeps insisting that i have a twin. only elsie has a twin okay! and she's bloody hell in the same school! BUT, cindy says that i look like fiona leng. (my apologies fiona, if you ever see this lah.) i SOOOOO DON'T look like her. then even celestia says so. like WTF. she say the hair, the body structure, the voice, EVERYTHING. what in the world! she's like taller, older, maybe retarded-er then me!!!! blah.):


this is so stupid. i'm going to watch a show now. then i'm going to sign my form and the warning letter saying that i jay walked. can you believe that? elsie and i got caught for jay walking. because we were almost late. so we decided to jay walk so that we can reach school on time. stupid. NICOLE LIM HUI! i am NOT a delinquent. bloody hell. you made it sound like i commited a grave sin/offence. i'm not a bandit. or a criminal.

well. till then.

i was doing my friendster thingy just now. then it hit me.
i have NO normal, decent looking picture that's properly taken. my pictures have at least one person making a fool of themselves. if not, then it's me looking awfully RETARDED in the picture. (mind you, the word decent in the previous sentence means proper. NOT like obscene or anything.) i don't look glamorous in photos and sad to say, i am NOT photogenic. jeanette, you are so loserly:(
blah. i can't believe this.


studied history yesterday. had so much fun laughing at some stuff. but i feel accomplshed. i managed to almost complete chapter 8 of history. BUT i still ahve 4-5 more chapters. god, kill me. i intend to finish history and geography by today. yes, by today. ELSIE, let's go study again!!!!!



hah. i SOOO ned to take a glamorous looking picture. but now that i'm like mugging, my eyebags are horrifying!!! eyebags eyebags eyebags!how can! they're ug-ly.

this is bothering the crap shit out of me. i don't know why. the eyebags/mugging/bloody red notebook where all my notes are bother the hell out of me.


i cannot stand assembly!!!!! my god! i totally HATE it! it's is so pissifying whenever assembly starts because it's like so @#%*ing warm!! and then we have to hear the hymn blasting and some girls singing OFF KEY!! i mean i am fine with it but, they don't allow us to even laugh!!! bah.


i am tired. going off line know. till then.

blah. last night was the stupidest, most reatrded, most bloody @#%* ever.
at 12 midnight, when you need the light most, the bloody ceiling light died on us( my sister and me).

you know the ceiling light, which is the one you switch on and off using a switch(duh) on your wall... yah. my sister and i share a room and the bloody light couldn't switch on. so it started flickering. so then i felt rather scared.(it's 12 midnight. ever watched ghost shows?) so then my sister thought hey, lets take the lamp from the living room.





so, this is the ceiling light. the bloody ceiling light that died on us. but you must credit it for working day in day out, whenever we felt like turning it on. kudos, ceiling light!:)








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say hello to mr standing-yellow-lamp. he's considered to be rather bright.
the brown stuff is the floor of my bedroom and white wire is the switch. the bulb is yellow. that's why his middle name is yello. not white.
he's really small actually.









thanks to my wonderful ceiling light which went mad, we had to use a lamp. a bloody small lamp. URGH. that's like super ANNOYING.


ah wells. i eel tired and lazy. shall go on friendster now. see you.

YES! YES! YES! HAHA! i am now super happy! cindy!! i got something to tell you!:)


my gosh. my stomach hurts. real bad. must be too much of the "gu lu rou" my grandma made for dinner last night. it tasted SO good! so i just kept eating until my stomach hurt. then my grandma kept saying "jeanette! finish it lah! don't keep the food! go finish!" but you see, i had like at least 15-20 pieces. so i kept eating so that i didn't disappoint her, which doesn't make any sense because it tasted SO good. but in the end, i couldn't finish it. there was still like enough today for my hungry cousins to eat for lunch. whoa. now my stomach hurts like crap:(


everyone knows what "gu lu rou" is right? it's the sweet and sour sauce pork thingy.. but we used chicken, because daddy doesn't eat/like pork.(note the '/', as my dad eats "char siew bao" but not pork. weird.) "gu lu rou"= sweet and sour pork/ chicken/ meat. but what is the "gu lu" in "gu lu rou"? any ideas?




see this pau? multiply it's size by 3. add a full bowl of honey stars cereal. plus one pizza bread thingy.. that's what i had for breakfast. maybe that's the cause of my painful stomach. blame the grandmother and the cousin. i really appreciate the food thingy but over feeding is bad..(:


blah. i feel hungry but my stomach is killing me. urgh! the bloody guts are getting on my nerves. bloody hell. i need a stomach transplant! FAST! any takers?

till then, yes!

yes. today is finally a happy, enjoyable and memorable day.(:


went SHOPPING with my sister today, like after school. so fun! i like, no, love retail therapy. that's the best medcine for ANY kind of sickness. even moodswings. seems to me that burning a hole in your wallet makes the whole day seem happy!(: but it's short-lived. because when you realise you're dead broke, you wished you haden't bought anything. anyways, who says money can't buy happiness?? it SURE can. 50 dollars in exchange for 3 days worth of euphoria? i don't mind really.(:

elsie and i were playing "what comes to your mind when i say..." game while waiting for pratha.
so here goes.

what comes to your mind when i say barbeque?- lays bbq potato chips. YUM(:
what comes to your mind when i say chips?- casino!! the red and green.
what come to your mind when i say dinosaur?- the one with the horn and the spiky back thingy.
what comes to your mind when i say treat?- TRICK OR TREAT!
what comes to your mind when i say stone?- stoning. like a rock.
what comes to your mind when i say reserve?- money. cash reserve.
what comes to your mind wheni say happy?- HAPPINESS. smiley faces.
what comes to your mind when i say end?- THE END.
what comes to your mind when i say mad?- IMH.


HAHA. i know there are a whole lot of repetittion in the words "what comes to your mind..." thingy. but that's the game. i am going to make some people do this.(:
like 5. good luck reading. you'll probably be SQUINTY after that. heehee!


yeah. i feel so happy. really. oh yes. i don't think i look that retarded in the friendster thingy lah. right? i just look fat in the photo, that's all. cindy says i look like an IMH patient. and my dad says i look retarded. my mum says it doesn't look like me. what the hell. it IS me.

haha! so yeah. i just came up with the 5 people i want to do the stupid thing.
1. qi hui
2. ru jing
3. eunice gee
4. jill.( my sister.)
5. samantha chan

YAY! now be thankful(:

today was the best day ever. and I RUINED it.
it was any other normal day. just that i felt slightly less depressed. pretty happy actually. i was just rather annoyed with the class(as usual) towards the end of the day. that's all. but i just had to spoil it when i was on the bus. nobody spoilt it for me. i did it myself. how stupidly retarded.


why did i even bother to think for a moment about this? do i even know you? i don't see why i wasted my time on the bus thinking and contemplating when i should be concentrating on my studies. and i thought it would all be perfect. and i suddenly realise that nothing in this world is perfect. not even the perfect pair of silver shoes. nothing. you wasted your time thinking, jeanette. why did i think and pray and put my hopes high that you would notice? you never will. and would ever. it was all a wishful thinking on my part.



everything is going to be okay. i pray.

grabbed this from natalie koh's blog to do. yay(:

One reason for living?-i haven't accomplished what i want yet.
Do you think you are okay?-erm. yah. i'm normal. and healthy.
Ever donated blood?-no. i think it'll hurt.
Last message from?-cindy.
Last message sent?-cindy.
Last call from?-mummy.
Last place went?-school.
Last food you consumed?-grandma's fried bee hoon.
Last person whom you chat with in msn?-qihui
Accessories you usually wear?-earings and my trusty bangle.
Movie you want to watch?-scary movie, salem's lot.
How many piercings?2. one on right, one on left.
Have you ever performed on stage before?- yup.
Ever wish you could turn back time?- YES. definitely.
Ever thought of robbing a bank?-no.
One thing you totally regret doing?-yelling at my mum for the first and the last time.
Do you consider yourself a good listener?-depends on my mood.
Would you rather be happy or wealthy?- wealthy. because i am already happy(:
Are you shy to ask someone out? yup, if it is someone i like. but if it's a friend then, no.
Do you like to talk on the phone?- yah. i do that everyday.
Would you rather go on a walk or watch tv?- TV. i like the idiot box.
What's the worst words you know?- i don't know. how about numbers. they're evil.
What's your worst fear?- fear of heights, animals, death of loved ones.
Have you ever felt you were in love?- haha! yah.(:

what rubbish was that. oh well. credit to natalie koh anyways. ha. TAG you're IT. i'm bored. really. i need to find something to do.


although loneliness has always been a friend of mine,
i'm leaving my life in your hands.
people say i'm crazy, indeed, i am blind.
risking it all in a glance.
how you got me blind is still a mystery,
i can't get you out of my head.
don't care what is wrtten in your history,
as long as you're here with me.

blah. came back from school feeling relatively tired and worn out. POOOF.

today, after GY, i went to go and talk to miss chua. she said the estimated cost to HAWIAII is... $2200 sgd.*gasp* yeps pepole. not kidding. $2200. gosh.

i don't know what's up with me these days. i just keep eating the FLORIDA'S NATURAL fruit nuggets. or if not, then it'll be the cranberry apple juice. yum.(:

ARGH. i haven't started studying yet. i am SO going to DIE. not really but, if i do badly for the examinations, i'll be:

1. stuck with a lousy, sucky subjet combination for the next 2 years.
2. one more EXTRA bloody fucking year in SAC.
3. unable to go to hawaii, either because the school won't allow or my parenrs bar me.
4. super SAD.
5. highly probable to suffer from temporary insanity.


BUT, if i do well, i will be:

1. IN HAWAII! woot!
2. remain as i am. 4 year course, 2 years down, 2 more to go.
3. good subject combination, subject to availability of classs, which i can ask for a change with good results.
4. EUPHORIC!(:
5. highly probable to uiffer from temporary insanity.


as you caan see, if i get GOOD grades, it's a win-win situation. AND point 5 in both are the same as one is because i'll go MAD being sad. second because i'll be too happy. WTH.

i really don't know. i feel too tired, lazy and discouraged to study.

ANYWAYS, i got my enhlish mock exam paper back. i passed!!!!! woohoo!
comprehension: 18/50
summary: 16/50
looks like i can comprehend stuff but can't summarise them. that means i got a 34/50.
YAY.(:


AHH. why the heck am i rambling about my grades anyways. i think the exam fever has already burnt my brain. no wonder cindy says i am an IMH patient.

click here to entertainment.


see you.

BLAH. after yesterday's regergitation of inner feelings, a feel quite a chipper now.(:

i think i failed miserably for my semestral tests. and i intend to go study later. kudos to you, jeanette. you actually study.

went to bedok interchange, the place i haven't been for a long time, for sushi. felt a sudden surge of sushi-eating come into me. and, i didn't eat much surprisingly... but oh well.

oh yah. i ACTUALLY had homework. which i didn;t do until this morning. as usual. i didn't bring my fool-scap paper home. what the hell. this is like the 7th time i did that. 7 fucking times. AND because of bloody hell forgetful-ness, i had to rush it this morning. but that wasn't so bad. because i had time to do it. BUT oh no, i had to FORGET that i had math homework AND leave the bloody notes in school! so about 16 of us were outside class during math. it was pretty fun but EXAMS are like round the corner! i didn't study in p6 just to slam my results in her face?!!!! partially but, still, it was to get into an express class. UGH jeanette. you need to got a black book and write a 'things to do list'. everytime you forget, the book can double up and SLAP YOURSELF ON THE HEAD FOR FORGETTING.

everything is annoying me. and JLoh had to pick today and tomorrow to yell and irritate us. just because some people in the school, in which i don't know who, did something to irritate her OR she's PMSing. RAAAAAAHHHH! can she like keep her comments to herself?! URGH.


the bloody bird that has been sitting on my window ledge for the past 35 mins or so needs to be shooo-ed away. it has been 'ku-yew'-ing at my window. ANNOYING.


oh wells. i don't know. i have an urge to eat apple strudle OR chocolate eclairs OR custurd pie OR anything along those lines are fine. but my tongue hurts.):


ha. i think that's about it. i'm done. till then.

Can... anybody find be somebody to love?
Each morning I get up I die a little, can barely stand on my feet
Take a look (Take a look at yourself)in the mirror and cry
(yeah, yeah)Lord, what you're doing to me
I have to spend all my years in believing you
But I just can't get no relief Lord
Somebody (somebody) oooh somebody (somebody)
Can anybody find me somebody to love?
I work hard (he works hard)
everyday of my life
I work till I ache my bones, at the end (at the end of the day)
I take home my hard earned pay all on my own I
get down (down) on my knees (knees)
And I start to pray (praise the Lord)
'Till the tears run down from my eyes Lord
somebody (somebody) oooh somebody (please)
Can anybody find me somebody to love? (He wants help)
Every day - I try and I try and I try -
But everybody wants to put me down
They say I'm going crazy,
they say I got a lot of water in my brain
Got no common sense, (He's)I got nobody left to believe
Yeah - yeah yeah yeah
Oooh Somebody (somebody)
Can anybody find me somebody to love?(Anybody find me someone to love)
Got no feel I got no rhythm ,
I just keep losing my beat(you just keep losing and losing)
I'm OK I'm alright (he's alright)
I ain't gonna face no defeat,
I just gotta get out of this prison cell
One day I'm gonna be free Lord
Find me somebody to love, find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love, find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love, find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love, find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love, find me somebody to love
Somebody, somebody,
somebody, somebody,
somebody Find me somebody,
find me somebody to love
Can anybody find me... Somebody to love
Find me somebody to love, find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love, find me find me find me
Find me somebody to love, Somebody to love
Find me somebody to love... Find me, find me, find me


hello. last night, when i was talking to cindy, i found out something i figured i should never have found out. it made me cry and feel so upset last night. and it's going to continue on for the next few days. my darlings, please, if i tick you off for the next week, don't take it to heart.

i feel so moody now. i don't even feel like talking about it. mm. cindy tried cheering me up. but it didn't really work much. oh well. i'll get over it sooner or later. but at this rate, i think later.


hai... i have nothing much to say really. there's only mugging, mugging and more mugging. that's all everyone i know can actually think of. me? well, i still haven't started thanks to the thing that happened last night.


anyways. i had a super wierd(i can never spell this.) dream. i dreamt of a man in black, like a theif, stopping my father's car in the hotel/resort genting. then, he was holding a bottle of kerosene and a LIGHTER. he wanted to burn us all alive if we didn't give him money and our passports. when my father got out, my younger sister wanted to get out as well but we pulled her in. then more men who looked like terrorists came as my dad didn't want to give them anything. so the wierd thing was, those men were speaking in GERMAN! LIKE WHAT THE HELL LAH! and my dad understood them and so did the rest of us. like HELLO! i don't speak german. so yes, the car got sprayed with kerosene and before the lighter was thrown down, i FORCED myself to wake up.
i don't think that i got a shock then i woke up because when i woke up, i felt like bloody tired.


it's always like that. even in my dreams i can't bear to see loved ones die. people might say:" it's only a dream" but still i force myself to wake up so that i don't have to see anyone die. probably i feel to scared to see what might happen. my,my jeanette, you're such a loser.


i should give up right? it's high time.

HELLO! i decided to change my blog because i was os sick and tired of it. so yes i'll be blogging regularly now. so yeah. haha.

i changed nmy phone the other day! so it's functioning. that's good.

hah. everything's a bummer now. because life is getting so mundane. the exams are like round the corner and i haven't started anything. somebody slap me. not only that. i have been flunking my science and my progress report has more red marks than ever nefore. what the hell. it's high time that i should start studying. really. CCA break has made great way for it. and i really should make use of it before i really get into a whole lot of trouble.

school's ending in like a month and a half's time. hawaii and the concert is drawing near. year 2006 is ending. ugh. which reminds me i have 2 weeks of mugging. 2 freaking short weeks. i am so going to study. starting monday.


i really should not be sitting here doing this. i am like suppossed to be at the trombone society concert now. but i didn't... sadness. hai. i really should go.


oh wells. till then.

cause obviously, she's out of my league
but how can i when she keeps
dragging me in and i, know i
never will be good enough for her.