ccps today. not exactly fun. nor good. because it wasn't much of a performance. it was more of a well, reception. where people EAT and just can't really be bothered. WONDERFUL. it didn't really matter to me whether they were watching or not. honestly, what really bothered me the most was the fact that they were EATING. yes. while playing every song, namely fever, smoke on the water, fantasy on an irish air and pirates of the carribean, i was practically looking at the people eating whenever i had a reat. like GOSH. i felt like drinking teh ping. so they were munching on their food and we were left there, playing and watching them chewing away, unappreciated and perspiring. oh wells. but when we were done, that's when the fun started. when we went back to the CCPS band room(they have a ROOM!! it's air conditioned and stuff.[:), mr de sent some food up. then everybody got high when they saw food. it looked as thugh we like had starved for 10 years. especially ru jing. SUUPER greedy...


ahaha. i really don't wat to go for the combine thingy. so celestia, you're going. because i honestly feel VERY inferior. i mean yah. we're a silver medal band. what's more, we can't sight read for goodness sake. my sight reading SUCKS. yes. but st andrews, st patricks and siglap are GOLD medal bands. so obviously they'll fare better. and at first i though we could just you know look through the set piece like for days before going for the combine. but NO.... i was so terribly wrong. because we'll recieve our set piece on the 27th of november(that's fucking late, idiots!) and the combine is on the 27th of november. shitshitshit. GREAT. how great. i am so screwed. because if celestia ann doesn't go, i am screwed to the ground.
why?

1. i'll most probably cry on that day. (mr glosz is terrifying.)
2. i'll embarass my poor self that day.
3. they'll remember me as the idiot who can't play.

woohoo. this is the time to confess how pathetic i am. well, what's new. kill me really. how horrifying. i am so going to die. whalalala. why must i be cursed with such a horrible life? i think i murdered somebody in my past life. so this is RETRIBUTION.


i was chatting with cindy over msn yesterday and i realised how slow i am. and of course, how pathetic i am. i mean, cindy typed out lines of words with so many "XxX" inside. i mean she was telling about the funny language. i mean yah, it's funny and it's really good humour but, i wonder, do people really speak like that?? i mean, whatever she typed out, i couldn't understand a single shit. and there she was, enjoying the laughter on her own. i don't blame her for laughing but my point is, what is the world becoming to? what the hell is "ii lurRbBe euu WworRrXxX" and "ii duNch nOe." i mean, i just found out what it meant yesterday. the first line means i love you and the last word is a cantonese(dialect) slang that can only be used when you're in hong kong or speaking in cantonese. that, i know because i myself speak cantonese. but i didn't know that was what it was. the second line means i don't know.

i am so utterly disgusted by this. when i though short forms were bad enough. but no. this is the most disgusting and mortifying thing i have seen in my life! it's not even english! what happened to the speak good english movement? what hapened to the "hua yu cool!" movement? what happened?! the words or rather, they call it the "ah lian language" to me is a big black sack of GARBAGE. so this is the standard of english they have in singapore. this is the type of people who inhabit the country with the best airport. this is the type of people who inhabit the cleanest country. wow. i am not saying everyone is like that because, i am sure there are people who feel the same as me, i am sure. because i cannot imagine a courtroom filled with people speaking and writing nothing but rubbish like this:

"hahaXxx"
"luRbbE"
"WoRrXxX"
"duNch"

i feel that as the country is progressing, the language standard is dipping. really. you don't see lee kuan yew and lee hsian long speaking like that do you? come on. it's really high time we should learn from them. i'm not asking you to be like the british and speak perfect english all the time. i just need you to speak in proper sentences. and of course, correct tenses and grammer. i'm fine if you don't have a giant vocabulary. just speak proper english, and use simple words. that is all it takes. which i think every singaporean who has been to school will be able to manage.(:


yes. i should stop critiscizing. because i feel really mean. the next time i see a blog with those words, i won't give a shit anymore. because i have made my point. i'll just burst out in huge laughter and skip to the next blog.

so that's it i guess. bye.


*because love is so easy to feel but the hardest thing to say...
i'm hooked onto 98 degrees!